new thoughts on love

"Hero" by Enrique Inglesias

Would you dance
if I asked you to dance?
Would you run
and never look back?
Would you cry
if you saw me cry?
And would you save my soul, tonight?

Would you tremble
if I touched your lips?
Would you laugh?
Oh please tell me this.
Now would you die
for the one you loved?
Hold me in your arms, tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Would you swear
that you'll always be mine?
Or would you lie?
would you run and hide?
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.

Oh, I just want to hold you.
I just want to hold you.
Am I in too deep?
Have I lost my mind?
I don't care...
You're here tonight.

I can be your hero, baby.
I can kiss away the pain.
I will stand by your forever.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.
I can kiss away the pain.
And I will stand by you forever.
You can take my breath away.
You can take my breath away.

I can be your hero.


Okay...so I was listening to this song, and chatting with the man in my life at the same time. So of course I was relating certain aspects of the song to the relationship we have, especially in light of the incredibly over-the-top emotional day that I've been having--and how he was willing to listen to me talk things out. He's really great like that--yet another thing that makes me love him more.

But then I stopped and thought over the song again. I know it doesn't apply wholly to how God views me, or how I view Him--but again, certain aspects of it do pertain to that relationship. For the longest time, I could never wrap my mind around the concept of God as a lover. I was very uncomfortable with the concept. It had such dirty connotations in my mind, and I was definitely NOT okay with it.

However, due to a lot of emotional healing that I've undergone this year--kind of ironic in view of today's emotional psychoses--I am actually able to understand that perception of God. He woos us gently, tenderly. He never forces Himself on the ones he loves. He invites us to dance with Him, to be a part of His great and wonderful plans. But He allows us to be the ones to come tentatively into His presence, where we wait, trembling, to see what He will do. And yet, we should never be afraid of what He might do. He will not harm us. Whatever happens, God allows it for good things to happen in return.

Here, I am allowed to pause and consider. I have my road diverging before me. I can take one path that says, "All of these things have happened, and they really sucked. Nothing good has come from it...I don't believe that God loves me!" Or the other path offered, says, "I haven't seen the good from it, and I might never see it. But I'm trusting that He knows best and has what's best in store--not only for me, but for the unseen that He still cares about."

This is somewhat rambling...so I'm going to stop for now. Sleep calls.