changes

God knows me quite well, I will admit. (Go figure, He made me...He ought to know!) He's been changing my plans right and left for a few months now, but one thing I just realized was that He made a gradual shift in the plans. I'm guessing that's because if He'd done it all at once, I would have gone bonkers and turned away from Him--at least temporarily--refusing to trust Him. As is, I'm gradually trusting Him as the plans change.

Also, I just realized that there's no need for me to worry about the future. In fact, I haven't been making any plans for awhile now. I just had a thought about, "Well, what about next year while I'm in school and working...where will that be?" And then it dawned on me that I don't need to worry about the future, if I'll be able to continue working at the bookstore while being an RA or not. God knows the future, and He's in control. If that's the case, why should I worry?

I get so easily distracted from the here and now when I worry. I end up thinking about everything but what's going on all around me at this moment, and when my attention is divided, I'm not very effective where I'm at. Since my desire is to be used of God for His purposes, I need to be present where I'm at and not in twenty billion different places and times.

This is also teaching me about contentment vs. complacency. Hmm. Now there's a topic I can sink my sharp little eye teeth into...but not at this time. No, that's something I need to reflect and understand better first.